Feeling stressed and making happy lists

Right now, I'm not going to lie to you blogland, I'm feeling pretty grumpy and stress-y.  To cut a long whinge into a slightly shorter one, I cancelled my phone network with Vodafone a few days ago on the grounds that I get crap phone signal at home.  I used several coverage checkers, chatted to other people and in the end opted to go over to ee.  Got shiny new phone today (after hours on the phone to various customer service departments, as they'd sent it to the wrong address) and excitedly set it all up, took out phone insurance, transferred all my numbers and got ready for the treat of being able to use my phone at home.  Except for, when wandering around my house I discovered it is actually worse than on Vodafone.  One bar of signal or no service, crackly, broken phone calls and a new 24 month contract I can't really use.  Cue more phone calls to customer service, more stomping around the house and the very likely possibility that I will be packing up my shiny new phone and sending it back.

I know that these are the sorts of things that other people shrug off.  My ultra laid back brother would have just waited for the phone to be delivered today rather than getting stressed about the slightly incorrect address and the fact that it was scheduled to arrive after my office actually shut.  I know some people would just shrug off the bad phone signal and accept that they're going to have to just use their home phone all the time.  But I have spent most of the afternoon like a tightly wound spring, wanting someone to come along and sort it all out - wanting someone to take it out of my hands and fix it all.  It's silly really - in the grand scheme of things it's hardly even deserving of a whinge; there are far more serious things going on all around me (and happening to other people), and I ought to just put it in perspective.  I just sometimes find myself asking, why can't things just be simple? Why does nothing seem to ever go to plan?

Riverside walk

I really dislike the aspect of my personality that means I'm a bit of a stress-head.  I get anxious about things and worry about worst case scenarios, or wind myself up about things that might never happen.
My Mum recently sent me this poem when I was going through a patch of feeling a bit down, and worrying about the future.

"Some of your griefs you have cured,
And the sharpest you still have survived,
But what torments of grief you've endured
From evils that never arrived.”

It is so true and really made me realise that I must stop worrying about things that may never happen - or as Mark Twain puts it, "I’ve been through some terrible things in my life, some of which actually happened."


In order to find some peace and calm, instead of getting all angsty about things that have not worked out this week, I thought I'd make another list of things I have felt grateful for, or have made me happy (I've done a few 'Happy Days' posts).  I am currently trying out the 5:2 diet and am on a 'fast day' (a 500 calorie day) so I can't have a glass of wine or slab of chocolate, so unfortunately I need to find another way of putting a smile on my face... (just joking!) (kinda!)


This week's happy list....

001. Sunshine and warmth at the beginning of the week.
002. Pajamas, sofa time and takeaway pizza after a long day at work.
003. New playlists on Spotify that remind me of summer. (Jamestown Revival - Paradise is currently getting played on repeat, such a good tune).
004. Throwing open all of the windows in the house and letting fresh air in.
005. My new yoga mat, which, it turns out, is a million times better than the exercise mat I've been using (oops!) It's so much less slippery, really comfy on my hands and feet, and bright blue! (For anyone interested it's this one, £14.99)
006. Really really enjoying my book and wanting to scribble down so many lines in it to remember (it's Thrive by Arianna Huffington, yep - still reading it!)
007. Having pancakes, cashew butter and strawberries for breakfast on Tuesday.  The perfect start to the day.
008. Baking cinnamon roll Quest bars (bought from Protein Pic n Mix) and dipping them in natural yoghurt, for a guilt free snack.
009. Seeing my Mum looking absolutely beautiful when trying on a red dress I had given her that I no longer wear.  Such a good feeling when you pass something on that you know they're going to get real enjoyment out of (and look amazing in!)
010. This adorable video that my Mum's friend showed me on Wednesday night.  Basically the little girl was scared of the fireworks outside so her Dad decided to play his ukulele and sing with her.  It's a lovely song, interspersed with her stopping to listen to the fireworks! 

What's been making you smile this week?

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  1. if it's an iphone - see if apple can swap it over. i've had phones where they don't work in my house ( the signal, vodafone suggested just getting a signal booster which they couldn't guarantee would work!) swapped the phone over for another new one and it worked weirdly. hope it works out for ya! xo

  2. That video made my week, how adorable - thank you for sharing x

  3. I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes I let the smallest of things really wind me up. I know that it makes me rotten to get so stressed about silly thing, but sometimes I can't help it. I've started reading books on mindfulness to try and help reign myself in a bit. It's not good or healthy to get so stressed and overwhelmed about things, but it can be hard to change!

    I absolutely adored that video though! She's such a cutie.. "Shhhh!! What's that noise?!". Adorbs!

    Victoria, x victoriachapman.co.uk

  4. I am *so* glad there are other people like me out there! I totally understand that anxiety and frustration - I also get rubbish signal, but I am tied to my contract with o2 until I've paid off the phone so trying to just grin and bear the problems!

    I love that little poem too - it's something I should keep in mind!

    www.moreaboutcat.co.uk xx

  5. You are not alone..
    I would have been the same, worryingly maybe even worse! - Without sounding like a diet bore..the fewer calories I was eating the more worked up I'd become (just a 5:2 note)
    Yesterday I gave myself a mini panic attack as I convinced myself I'd made a huge work error before confirming I hadn't at all..Arghhh total energy waste!
    Smile lovely & I do hope you get the phone sorted ASAP...failing that peanut butter is your friend! X

  6. I love your happy list. It's so easy to let things get us down, I think. I always try and take a few minutes in my day to just sit and think, think about things in perspective. I find it calms me down and makes me feel a little better. Easier said than done some days though!

    Hope today is a better day for you, sweet x

  7. I know how you feel, I am exactly the same unfortunately. I stress out over the tiniest little thing and get incredibly anxious. Doing a list like this is a fantastic idea!

  8. Happy lists are the best, nothing puts you in a better frame of mind than taking some time to appreciate what you are grateful for in life. Hope you are feeling better xx

    Sarah// A Sunday Smile

  9. What you on about Rosie, most people would be well stressed and annoyed at this, you ain't alone. I'd be really annoyed and anxious too. That's rubbish, did you get it sorted with the cooling off period? I've never had a problem with 02 if that helps, been with them for maybe 8 years and everything's always been tip top.

    Buckets & Spades

  10. I love love this poem and the Mark Twain quote. I too am an angsty person and have passed the quotes on to other angsty friends!

  11. Sorry to hear you've had such a stressful week, but you have such a great attitude about it all! I love the poem and the Mark Twain quote, thank you for sharing :)
    How are you finding the 5:2 diet, I did it for two weeks and stopped as on my 'fasting' days I wanted to kill someone it made me so grouchy! Good luck with it honey and enjoy all the happy things this week :)

    Lyndsay | Fizzy Peaches

  12. It's funny how small things can stress us out, though to be honest the way we're so attached to communication these days (I feel sooo old typing that) means we're more reliant on our phones than ever - I get so frustrated if I forget to charge my phone and it dies half way through the day, even though I probably wouldn't have any urgent calls or messages anyway!

  13. We had that issue with Orange so decided to move to O2 which has been better, just issues with 3G in our house now, luckily we can just link to the house connection, or I would never get net on it at home!
    Two Hearts One Roof

  14. I really enjoyed your happy list! Yay for a non slip yoga mat. No more "omg am I going to fall on my face" moments when in downward dog etc! I worry way to much, it can be hard to let go of what we have imagined might happen. p.s I NEED try cashew butter! xx

  15. I had the same with every phone and provider - poor signal. Then we got a sure signal box to boost the service through vodaphone ( £50) and I get full coverage ! Amazing ! Definitely worth a try? X

  16. Thanks for the yoga mat suggestion :)


  17. I need to try writing a happy list, I've been far too stressed these days!
    Eilidh xo



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