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The soles of your shoes are all worn down


Although I like to think of my blog as a place for positivity and happy things, I'm afraid I make no excuses for the fact that this isn't going to be particularly uplifting read. I think I need the catharsis of reflecting on the last few days, so if you've come here for cupcakes, sunny gardens and bike rides, well, you might want to sit this one out.

Those who follow me on Twitter might have already worked out that my Grannie died on Tuesday night.  She had been suffering from the after-effects of a stroke for three months but the optimist in me was hoping she would get better, and so, though some may have seen it as inevitable, it still came as a bit of a shock.  Luckily my boss was understanding enough to let me take a few days off work to go down to Cornwall to be with my Mum and her stepfather (my Grannie's husband).  Those few days were filled with a great deal of sadness - the sorts of things that never occur to you would generate emotion, but do - seeing hairs on a comb, half used soaps, a toothbrush in a pot that will never be used again.  Whilst looking in a bathroom cupboard I found my Grannie's diary and found it terribly upsetting to see events jotted down in diary pages for dates that she would never see.  The photos in this post were taken when we went to the nursing home my Grannie spent the last few days of her life in to collect her things.  You can see the nursing home on top of the cliffs at Poldhu.  Sadly my Grannie died in hospital but my Mum felt it was such a perfect place for my Grannie to spend the last few days of her life.  

I know that I will remember my Grannie with warm thoughts forever, and will, for a long time feel sad for the mother that my mother has lost, and the wife that her stepfather lost (on their wedding anniversary).  Thank you to those of you that sent me lovely tweets this week, it has been a great comfort to know people are thinking of me.



22 comments

  1. lovely photography :)

    maddie xx
    http://vintagebeautyx.blogspot.com

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  2. so sorry to here about your grannie :(
    lovely photographs xx

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  3. Gorgeous photos, it really is a beautiful place. Sending some more love to you and and your family. <3 xxxx

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  4. So sorry to hear this.
    May your Grannie rest in peace xxxx

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  5. Condolences, I think you are very brave for sharing this, and we can all relate to what you are going through. My heart goes out to you :)

    On a personal note, the title of your blog gave me a chill when I saw what it was about...My nan passed from a stroke when I was ten. I remember going to see her in hospital - because of the type of flower we took for her, in her confused state she thought my mother had walked me from australia. Your post brought this back in a flash.

    Thank you for reminding me of her,I haven't thought about that for a long time :)

    You are in all of our thoughts,
    Many blessings

    Beth

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  6. So sorry to hear about your Grannie, Rosie. I hope you're doing okay xx

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  7. Sending you a whole lotta love, Rosie. If your Grannie was anything like you then I know she would've been an absolute diamond. I'm sure she's up there now feeling thankful for every memory, every conversation and every thought. Here if you need me xxx

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  8. So sorry to hear about your grandma. It's so difficult to deal with. It gets less awful with time, though it won't seem like it now. Best wishes.

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  9. I'm so sorry to hear about your Grannie ): Thinking of you Rosie <3

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  10. I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, I think the only thing you can do when something like this happens is just try and keep going and remember the good times and the memories. Somewhere along the line, the pain won't hurt as much. It looks like you've got so many wonderful people who are here for you, so don't forget that. Thinking of you Rosie xxx

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  11. I'm so sorry to hear of your loss! xx

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  12. Although you probably weren't thinking about it, this post was written so beautifully. Poldhu is a lovely spot and my thoughts are with you and your mum, I can hardly imagine how sad it must be - I hope things get a bit easier for you. x

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  13. So sorry Rosie. Hope you're okay. Lovely photography too xxxx

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  14. I've been away from Twitter so I did not know this until now. Losing a loved one is such a hard time. I remember when my Grandpa died I was just shattered. Sending lots of love and warm wishes to your family and all those who loved your Grannie! xoxo

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  15. Sending lots of love to you and your family. What a lovely song to help you through things too xx

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  16. This was a great post, it wasn't positive you're right, but really, who can do that all the time? And its a great way to remember your Grannie. My Grandaddy died in March, and its nice to know that other people feel your sadness. Will be praying for you and family <3

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  17. I'm really sorry to hear of your loss.
    My thoughts are with you + your family.

    Ayeisha
    x

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  18. Oh Rosie, I'm so very sorry for your loss. I don't think it matters how expected or inevitable a person's death might be, it's always a shock to realise that they're gone.

    It looks a truly beautiful place that your Gran was able to see out her later days, and I'm sure she knew how loved she was.

    Take care of yourselves and eachother.

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  19. So sorry to hear about your grannie, I have lost 5 close people this year, but I promise, it does get better. Your photography is beautiful. Sending you a lot of love =)

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  20. So sorry to hear this hun. I lost my nannie earlier this year too and it is terribly sad to see things like that :(

    Hugs to you and your family xxxx

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